As I’ve traveled through my life I’ve learned that we all experience loss. Some earlier on than others and some much later in life. Grief can also come from many places. Death of relationships, friendships, marriages, and even the loss of an heirloom that you have been passing down from generation to generation. There are countless things that we grieve over and as long as you can learn the healthy way to grieve, You will hopefully find a new normal. Most definitely not a CURE-ALL but a way to cope with the void in your life. This doesn't necessarily mean you heal but you will find a way to handle your emotions so that the grief is manageable and you can continue with a well-lived life. I have experienced a ton of loss in my life from my first crush in elementary school to three failed marriages to my illness and those of my dearest departed. Although I have not completely healed I have found my new normal. I chose this category to blog about because along with my chapters, I have learned a lot from all the losses I've endured and would like to share my true life stories in hopes that it might help you or maybe somebody you know and love.

My biggest loss was that of my mother when I was 22 years old. To this day I still think I have PTSD from it. During this past year, at the age of 51 as I am still processing my feelings and emotions in regards to the loss of my mother, I did ask a very wise Dr., do you know the meme that goes around on Facebook and it reads: "My mother taught me everything about life except how to live without her" He looked me dead in the eye and said to me, Michelle she did teach you how to live without her, she died and you’re living without her. Sometimes it takes somebody in the field of mental health to open your eyes to loss and to be able to open up with someone who is an expert in the field.

The deepest hole in my soul and my worst void in life has been living my life, the last nearly 30 years as a motherless daughter. In the entries that follow this introduction, I will document the losses I’ve endured in my life in hopes that if and when you have a loss and you feel grief you can reference my experiences and know that you’re not only alone but may feel the same way I did. I know it’s a subject that none of us want to talk about but along the way I learned the more you tell your story the better you’ll feel, the better you will heal.

All My Love Always ~ M
04/11/2020